My Quicksand of Forgetfulness

                                Let Me Count the Days and the Ways I Can Combat This Disease!

I am a perfectionist! I am scared to tell people that I'm not perfect! I have done nothing wrong to deserve this diagnosis. I am a good person with a bad diagnosis. I am scared, and embarrassed, and don't want to lose control of my mind and life. It also has shortened my life according to everything I read about it.  I have begun to tell friends and former colleagues about my recent diagnosis of Alzheimer's. It is difficult for me to read, but a new stage in acceptance is beginning. The diagnosis became more real to me when I received the positive test results after my Spinal Tap (isn't that the name of a rock group or movie?) My doctor ordered an outpatient procedure my spinal fluid was removed by a syringe in my lower back and examined for evidence of Alzheimer's. Unfortunately, the results came back positive. Well, that was four months ago and I am still processing the results.  How does it make me feel? Mad, upset, frustrated, and wondering 'Why Me?' I a...

  ⭐"The closer a star comes to death, the more beautiful it becomes." I love this quote!💘   It’s hard to be patient when I am eager for a resolution to this situation that weighs heavily on my he art. I want a magic cure for Alzheimer's which haunts my daily life.  I feel like I'm having a good day and functioning normally. Then I forget something and feel like a failure. 😢Yesterday, I was excited to arrive in Cambodia and see it again. 😎 My husband and I were here seven months ago and it felt familiar. We unpacked, went to the grocery store, and did our laundry. I was feeling productive and good! 😁We took a relaxing swim in the hotel pool to cool off after dinner. Then my husband told me how worried he is about me and how confused I was today. Wow! That made me question my own reality.😓 I told him that I do have transition issues and that traveling has always given me anxiety. Now I feel like a failure! 😢 I want to start taking the new Alzheimer's drug and ...

  I am running the race of my life. I ask myself the day and date when I wake up before I check my watch to see if I'm correct. I also remind myself what city and country I'm in on this round-the-world five-month trip. Yes, my doctor approved the trip and ordered me to enjoy myself. At this point in time, it doesn't matter if I'm home or in Bangkok. I am following the MIND diet as much as possible and walking over 10,000 steps most days. I have new places to explore with my husband on our world trip. Everyone asks how we afford the trip. We are using up our free Air Miles and a special Air Asia deal where we can visit as many places as they fly. We find low hotel deals and even stay in hostels sometimes. So why not? I am taking one step at a time and focusing on the moment.  We only get one shot at life. Why should we spend it watching TV in an easy chair? Have you heard of Lester Dash who made a running world record at age 100? Granted, the Penn Relays is a race for 10...